The Calculator

She’d counted. From the driver’s side door to her new office’s visitor’s entrance that opened onto the dimly lit main lobby was 342 steps. There were 4 bushes to the left of the double glass doors and 4 to the right. The walkway was graveled cement. 16 steps from the main floor to the second…

14 hours before I move back to California

Perhaps if I hadn’t thought I could no longer live in Indiana because I couldn’t find any love there I would never have moved to Upland, California in 2005 and I would never have met the Man from Moreno Valley and I would never moved to Vegas with him and I would never have left…

Robert Frost

When you begin genuinely, just like he said, you’ll never know from the start where it will end or how When you begin with something on your heart and in your mind but you’ll take whatever it gives you just the same But me I’ve been searching for peace up mountain tops with my soul…

Mon plaisir…

You were the cleverest, most charming wordsmith that I had ever seen. Nobody loved you and hurt you as much as me. The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that obscure Carmel pub… The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that sports bar in Henderson… The jukebox playing music from my…

At the Holiday Inn with Logan

You lie to me You cry with me You’ll have to leave me I can’t be strong Our song is on Your heart’s gone Something’s wrong Why don’t you Why can’t you Why won’t you Now you’re gone But our song is on And I’m in two Why didn’t you Let love kill you To…

Contains 0% Juice

This time I am confident that I have finally done what I set out to do so long ago. I scared the shit out of him. And now, hopefully he won’t turn his head and look back. The strange thing about this whole process is that I wish that he would never leave. I wish…

Carolina Velvet Ant

The expiration on the side of the generic wheat bread read 7/25/18. It would expire tomorrow and it had never been opened.  She normally wasn’t this wasteful. Peligra decided that she would toast the entire loaf right now. He was due to arrive in twenty minutes. The apartment was spotless. It looked almost as if…

Cluster B

Yeah so, I wish that we were still friends. Honestly, I find myself saying that more and more to everybody that I used to know who suddenly disappeared. I suspect that in all actuality it wasn’t sudden, slowly but surely if I had been paying attention, they were letting me know that being a part…

Taking Stock

They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…

On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…