Death at Charada

I saw myself across the crowded dance floor of aimless arrogants in a Spanish bar on the other side of the world from where I was when I was my reflection’s age… She was, I was, we were, the only overweight girl(s) in the room and in the clique and I witnessed me through her doing…

Half Priced Box Wine

Sunken lifeless child’s eyes greasy receding mop top cut into a military style lack of a strong jaw hidden by a multicolored graying beard sweating profusely, huge drops of liquid salt falling like tear drops, like rain drops, a faucet- wet sloppy mouth constantly distracting from rarely brushed teeth sparse hair patches in weird spotty…

My tits

I know that as soon as you see them up close, covered or not, your mind decides if you like them, and therefore, me. You determine if they are too big to befriend or too long to be seen with in public… You decide in a split second how hard it would be to brush…

Debajo

You could cure cancer You could come up with a language so that we can understand dolphins You could play for Tampa Bay You could manipulate molecular structures in such a way that our gas guzzling machines won’t kill us any day You could fly You could sprout wings and call yourself angelic or demonic…

Rarefied Air

So you’re skinny And you’re pale And you’re fragile And delicate like lace So you’re well fed And well read And snooty And stained with grace And tucked around your  chiseled face You can still see that I’m  fun and fat And I’m  tanned and happy And I’m sexy and brilliant And I’m bossy yet…

Bitches and Priests

Rubens painted pictures of fat chicks like me but I can’t find my name on souvenir keys Oh Lord hear my plea, beautify the fallacies of me Whiskey tastes bad with ice, or Coke or anything And all I know is all I know and what I know is there… That I look better in the mirror,…

Pete

Everything I learned about boys, I learned from Pete. Pete said boys will only like you if you like what they like. Pete said boys will only date you if you have big, preferably fake, tits. Pete said boys will only marry you if there is a gun to their heads, you happen to be…

How to Kill A Girl

YOU walked two miles just to buy me a cake. YOU walked four miles just to buy me icecream. You’re SKINNY as a rail and I wear the same sized pants now as Santa does. This is no Magi’s gift-This is more like TO SERVE MAN from the Twilight Zone. Thanks, Jack Spratt. Because next…

Miss Moody Moves to Town

Ever get that hamster caught in a wheel, feeling? I have that today. I have a very unhappy uneasy mood today when technically nothing is wrong, nothing is really missing I just feel so…I dunno… Like I’m chasing my tail. I take a deep breath and release it. I feel like I should be anxious…

When you publish

Feels like a fantasy relationship in full effect- Smug, fat, wet and greasy with confidence- Deeply wholesome, high-some greedy breaths Teeth amazingly brilliant, brushed with talent and Zen paste As I light another cigarette and tip my whiskey flask No applause, no applause, please I can’t hear it anyway because I swear I’m dreaming all…