I’ve learned a lot about myself from you, young man. I’m grateful that I’ve met you. I had only ever had sex in the past 26 years with one other person where I wasn’t fantasizing about some other partner not in the same room and it was only one time. I craved him for a…
Tag: future
Taking Stock
They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…
For the Folk in The Cheap Seats
If I always looked to see if my hands were shaking first If I always took a full deep breath through the nose exhaling through the mouth first If I always considered the collateral damage of my actions first then I wouldn’t have ever learned a fucking thing in this life or had a damn…
Ressentiment
I very nearly told you… About where I’m headed How leaving you was dreaded About how much gloating I’d done In front of everyone About how I felt about you And why I can’t continue And why I’m not going to connect About how I hate when you deflect About my heart’s suture…
Insignificantfactorsingrandlifeequations
You know how much I love it when you beg. You’re hurting me with this now so pretend to care just a lil… If there is a hell I’m going because of you. You don’t even need me for this anymore so you’re being incredibly cruel. I don’t want to tell you to fuck off…
On the 153rd Juneteenth
He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…
Drowning Fishes
I can’t write about me from your point of view I have no idea why you do what you do This means I’ve never ever really known you How come you can’t just say, “Yeah, we’re through?” It’s not your fault you want to keep the door open I’m obviously the one who should get…
Big Ass Bully
I woke up and asked myself as if the chick inside me was the one I was simply observing and I asked her (really) You know this person is no good for you, can’t come with you, doesn’t want to be with you and on the flip side, you don’t want to be with him,…
Young Dionysus’ Momma
Try not to panic. Stay calm. All of the best decisions are made while calm. Even if things don’t go according to plan, when you make a calm decision, either way you will learn/grow from it. Typically, what has worked for me, is when I have a big decision to make about something, I make…
Class of 2018
She said she loved me and I hadn’t asked her to And then I thought that’s probably something a normal mom would do And then graduation popped into my head I wouldn’t have seen this if I had been dead that made me happy and mad having no other family can be sad And no…
