So shy in public but a rock god at home Crunching numbers in the office but singing show tunes alone And you may not be able to tell on the surface Clothes and smiles hide things But what entertains you when no one judges Is closer to who you really are than what I outwardly…
Tag: happiness
Kim Deal
Slowly but surely I’m scooping the balm of the sages on myself and lathering me up Surely yet slowly I’m coating the itchiness of insecurity with the salve of reality and clarity I heard it a million times before that nobody is perfect but I never let it sink into my skin deep enough before…
Green Tea Extract
For the entire time that I was consciously aware Of what was happening around me and who people pretended to be and what the world said that they should have been juxtaposed with the reality of what they were I always felt so sorry for my grandma. Not only sorry that she grew up in…
Ohio Renaissance Festival
When I was 41, I pissed on the chest of a 22 year old Abercrombie looking white boy who was a soccer and poker player in this apartment. I found out that it wasn’t just depression or PTSD or PMDD but Borderline Personality Disorder in this apartment. I frantically paced wondering where my son had…
Prevention
If my head was in that space right now the space where ending it all was all that I could think about what would I want someone to say to me and mean wholeheartedly? I’d want to be told the following: ” Baby, come hug me. I hate when you don’t see in you what…
Mon plaisir…
You were the cleverest, most charming wordsmith that I had ever seen. Nobody loved you and hurt you as much as me. The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that obscure Carmel pub… The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that sports bar in Henderson… The jukebox playing music from my…
At the Holiday Inn with Logan
You lie to me You cry with me You’ll have to leave me I can’t be strong Our song is on Your heart’s gone Something’s wrong Why don’t you Why can’t you Why won’t you Now you’re gone But our song is on And I’m in two Why didn’t you Let love kill you To…
Overflow Abatement
I noticed the bird flying around my garden singing ever so sweetly about how nice it was to be free I knew as soon as I saw him that he belonged to me I loved him so much I cut a board into 7 pieces just for him I drilled holes for assembly and applied…
Exit 68
I am his full bodied flesh covered live wire Antsy hands all over my softest skin like he’s putting out a fire My water and his oil shaken together with fate’s emulsifier Shit can easily transpire Over here with my eyes alone pulling off his attire I am his butterfly covered bubble gum flavored pacifier…
For the Folk in The Cheap Seats
If I always looked to see if my hands were shaking first If I always took a full deep breath through the nose exhaling through the mouth first If I always considered the collateral damage of my actions first then I wouldn’t have ever learned a fucking thing in this life or had a damn…
