Dearest Guru, I can see you now; raggedy red disheveled beard tickling your chest hairs- bald on top like the minute you were born, a little thin and sorrowful, eyes only bright from tears, furrowed brows, a barely noticeable slump in your shoulders, the worries of the world clawing your brain to shreds. I love … Continue reading Dearest Guru
I don’t want your fear-being afraid is a waste of your precious energies, sweetie- I want you open, vulnerable, willing and most importantly, resigned. Let me help you to become the greatest man who ever lived this way, my way, is the only way for you to get better at suffering. I tell you when … Continue reading Masochism Potion #9
6:56 AM To him via text: A speechless man is a lovely thing at times but right now is when you should tell me what it is that you need. 9:00 AM To him in my mind: Every time that I give a little bit I immediately want to pull myself back completely. I don’t … Continue reading The Typical Procession of Sunday
I woke up twice before the alarm to pee Ignored the first alarm but still ended up before the sun It was muggy but for whatever reason I never check the weather so I didn’t put on as much deodorant as I should have and felt funky most of the day. I was inspired though … Continue reading That one Bangles’ Song
Put your hand over the flame again- This time It won’t get burned. -Insanity I’ve only had one start to finish better day since I have been in Ohio than today. That day was the day that I met you. Since then, I have been, at your beck and call. And you know that you … Continue reading The Statue of Liberty
It’s not your fault, it’s mine. I never usually (probably hardly ever) act like this with anyone and I want to understand it but it doesn’t really matter after all… I just need to want something else, do something else, occupy my mind with something else other than… you. It’s not your problem, it’s mine. … Continue reading трезан песник
They say that if you want something never give it up. But then they turn right around and say if you love something set it free. Love> Want. So, I’ve been trying to think of something to say to you, for two days now, that’s not manipulative, or trivial or childish. Still, after all of … Continue reading After A Good Run
