Mon plaisir…

You were the cleverest, most charming wordsmith that I had ever seen. Nobody loved you and hurt you as much as me. The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that obscure Carmel pub… The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that sports bar in Henderson… The jukebox playing music from my…

Mother Moonlight Starshine

I’m shiny and 12 again. I’m scraping the topsoil with my hands. When I was 12 I used to love when I got sweaty and funky and other people would say you stink and it would make me cry but those tears and those insults and purposely skipping baths helped me to feel like I…

Contains 0% Juice

This time I am confident that I have finally done what I set out to do so long ago. I scared the shit out of him. And now, hopefully he won’t turn his head and look back. The strange thing about this whole process is that I wish that he would never leave. I wish…

Taking Stock

They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…

the ladyking of Ephyra

I crack the dawn over a sizzling skillet of self aggrandizing about my position in your life and then the punishing rush begins the onslaught to my swollen throat of the very hottest over controlling fascination made from only the finest handpicked Kenyan coffee beans which accidentally gives me more courage than I can actually…

Curl Patterns

When they’ve stayed I felt strange Like I owed them in some sort of way For putting up with me for more than a day I’ve known something needed to change One I kept for 16 years acting like I didn’t have ears When he said the only thing I fear that he never loved…

Empty Tub of Vick’s VapoRub

Met a guerrilla playboy 27 years ago when all that I wanted was to be free Of the religion and rules that I was raised on and he ended up taking advantage of me Why do you like him my grandma asked He hasn’t even gone to school! I had no answer that I could…

La Bruja Negra

I called to you Over hills and through valleys and under rocks and down streams I chanted your name on the essence, on the fly on the wind, on the wings You heard me cascading through,like visions do under skin and over heart strings you came to me spell cast eyes red socked feet frozen…

From the Desk of Pixie Prince : The Journal (2)

03/28/01 I was afraid I wasn’t going to bleed. I am not ready to be a mother again so soon after my son. That would be Trevon’s dream. I guess I try to convince myself one way or the other on how I feel about him. He made me dinner last night. He brings me…

The 18 things that I should have done…

18. Never cheated on Kane. 17. Went on that free trip to Ghana. 16. After one of my best friends decided he didn’t want me as a girlfriend, I should have kept the books he gave me instead of destroying them. 15.Kept writing Nikki Giovanni until she wrote me back. 14. Been a better pledge…