White Boys in the 80’s

Nate was the first boy I ever thought I loved. He was Tom Cruise and Jon Bender or at least as close as I ever thought that I’d get to them I knew him since he was 8 we went to the same Sunday School and Wednesday Night services and he was a bad kid…

Genghis Khanfidence

Now that I actually noticed it I’m thinking about all these scenarios where I really thought that I was in love with this guy and he was like everything and then, now that I remember correctly something about that situation was related to period sex. I don’t know what love is, I never did. Either…

Lady Philosophy

It’ll twist you up, I promise. You’ll follow all the rules and fail. You’ll read and re-read the formula and fuck it up. And so you grasp on desperately clinging to any little thing you can repeat you keep turning the other cheek because you heard that somewhere and you keep inviting dumb ass people…

What y’all left behind

It’s difficult not to think about on a rainy afternoon in January when you live in a one bedroom apartment by yourself in a suburb of Sacramento believe it or not, it really is so hard not to look back on the shit I kept and the shit I’ve thrown away see I’ve thrown away…

October 1582

In the span of 365 mornings and evenings You could learn to crawl You could start and stop and start You could fall in or down or off You could prove how crazy you really are to the one that you  claim to love You could come to grips with the fact that you and…

The Temple of Osiris at Abydos

It’s because the cut is right and because the cut is right the whole of the universe exists on the very end of my emotional string, my happening, my being is nothing and within that nothing lies everything. It’s because its easy enough and doesn’t require much fuss and is a reflection of us and…

Dickrider

I wanna go to the casino I wanna go to the art museum I want to go to a fancy luxury theater I want to take pictures of my experiences to share with the world on social media so that they think I’ve been happy at some point and that I’ve done fun and important…

High Noon at The Tropic of Capricorn

We don’t get magical second chances sentient being but we get a shot anew nonetheless if we ever meet dawn again after what never really feels like rest and We don’t have more daylight than we need human being and yet we never have enough even when it feels like there just might be too…

He introduced me to Tank and the Bangas

I’m sure that I must have said your name He left the same way he came Carrying things that I never saw the inside of And he did what he was supposed to do Stood in for you Even if he did talk about himself the entire time Even if he did try to step…

The Metallic Aqua Blue Lacquer

I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything’s fine and as it should be and it’s not your fault. It really isn’t. It’s not your fault that I don’t know how to end things like a proper adult. I’m actually quite sorry so sorry that I’m crazy and I hang onto whoever the person is that is least…