On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…

Drowning Fishes

I can’t write about me from your point of view I have no idea why you do what you do This means I’ve never ever really known you How come you can’t just say, “Yeah, we’re through?” It’s not your fault you want to keep the door open I’m obviously the one who should get…

Esther Pauline “Eppie” Lederer

You like hanging onto nothing The boy is peanut butter in your hair Do not text the runner up when you are in this frame of mind Do not text the back up and tease him with your lying Do not text number two, or three, especially not fucking three Don’t become the vision you’re…

Kenny Rogers

I saw the place that you put the things that matter to you. Accidentally, actually. And for the past couple of years the only content that you contributed were just pictures of your own face. Your face in the bathroom, your face on the road, your face next to your friends, or your face in…

Ghost Cat Purr

You’re the son of the goddess of fortune, clearly. I guess that I should finally open these couple of packages. Seems like they have been on the edge of my bed forever, next to those stupid furry red restraints… Waiting for you. There’s always someone baby…someone who gets hurt. I hung out with a friend…

Fresh Pearls and bacon

C’è una cospirazione globale da qualche parte Qualcuno è stato stuprato prima che qualcuno venisse ucciso Alcuni governi sono stati indeboliti mentre alcuni bambini vengono trafficati e sono qui, seduto su spilli e aghi, raschiando via la mia pelle, mordendo le unghie dei piedi verso il veloce, preoccupato e nervoso come l’inferno- Piangendo e ascoltando…

Ping Pang Qiu

I can’t stop so Yesterday was like the first day I excite him and still I am nothing I couldn’t keep my heart to myself His walk turned me on Yet he doesn’t know I’m alive Why isn’t his company plenty? For a second it was magic. Soon though I will wonder When will I…

Treacle

It’s not my fault it’s the season. I want to punch you and I want to love you. Come to me, sugar monster. Something about now, something about this has me teetering the ledge. It’s not my fault its the cycle. I want to kiss you and I want to hurt you. Come to me,…

Drowning Orchids

I only feel good when I feel bad I only have hope when I miss you I only write eloquent verse when you’re roaming around in my thoughts aimlessly I only try when you lie and tell me things that I want to hear but I hear them all of the time And none of…

Underscore

In 2012, I walked through hell with a mean monster wasting time as it flew In 2013, I left for greener pastures scared my life would always be blue In 2014, I met a sneakier monster who couldn’t give me enough In 2015, His stalking helped me decide that I would just give up on…

EXECRABLE PASTICHE

I don’t nag him or cook for him or buy him anything I don’t check up on him or support him or see him in the morning You’re more than welcome to be the love of his life And help him build up his hopes and dreams You’re more than welcome to be mad that…

GlobalWarming

He’s a shower and I’m a scarf. I’m a dump truck and he is typewriter ribbon. I’m the catfish that he can’t resist. He’s an envelope and I’m ground pepper. I’m an elastic waistband and he’s a thermometer. I’m the city that he revisits… I’m worthless, He’s useless. He’s a shower and I’m a scarf….