Quarks

Empty beer cans slight hunger traveling as far as I can no road under feeling indifferent traveling through spaceland and my mind’s eye searching for your face I almost cannot see Missing you but pushing through is the tiniest everything Full ashtray kinda high traveling with no seat belt heart in the sky feeling confident…

Green Tea Extract

For the entire time that I was consciously aware Of what was happening around me and who people pretended to be and what the world said that they should have been juxtaposed with the reality of what they were I always felt so sorry for my grandma. Not only sorry that she grew up in…

George Wickham

Our new reality is you’re a fucking moron. Its one thing to not like or respect someone but its a whole other thing to feel that way and still attempt to use them as if they have an obligation to you. How stupid could you be? How stupid do you think that I am? (And…

Mother Moonlight Starshine

I’m shiny and 12 again. I’m scraping the topsoil with my hands. When I was 12 I used to love when I got sweaty and funky and other people would say you stink and it would make me cry but those tears and those insults and purposely skipping baths helped me to feel like I…

Core Disturbances

Don’t kiss me and mean it, don’t call me. I need you to be a passing thing. Don’t cry on my shoulder and let me dry your tears, I need you to be an unrealistic dream. Don’t text me and say you love me, don’t see me. I need you to be imaginary and pretending….

Overflow Abatement

I noticed the bird flying around my garden singing ever so sweetly about how nice it was to be free I knew as soon as I saw him that he belonged to me I loved him so much I cut a board into 7 pieces just for him I drilled holes for assembly and applied…

The Unisex Outerwear Collection by H&M

I’ve learned a lot about myself from you, young man. I’m grateful that I’ve met you. I had only ever had sex in the past 26 years with one other person where I wasn’t fantasizing about some other partner not in the same room and it was only one time. I craved him for a…

DSM VI

People like me, like us, often have no choice but to talk to themselves because there really isn’t anyone else to talk to. I must tell myself to calm down. And a lot of times the reason that there isn’t anyone else around is because people like me, like us, have systematically pushed anyone who…

Amor Fati

At 6, I was left with some relatives while my mom was in prison, and my father’s sister who was 11 used to hit me all of the time because she didn’t want to baby-sit me. Feel that. Someone tweeted to me the comment your blog is cool. Feel that. And yet somehow I still…

On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…