Cherry Red Synapse of The Surgeon General

Whiskey on ice with a splash of sweet tea and listening to the Deftones got me wanting to lick shit off of other shit and this cigarette from the freezer won’t stay lit I keep forgetting about it my brain never shuts off it seems you’re on it and a billion other things stopping for…

Gamma Butyrolactone

A full work day damn near 7 hours He came over at 11:30 AM I was worried but I wasn’t afraid of him He felt the same fucking way, scared because he could have encountered anything that reckless gambling but he got me and I got a work day from him too but it felt…

Les Demoiselles d’Avignon

I thought it was because I wasn’t well versed and I was unrehearsed or because I couldn’t get loving them quite right then I thought it must be because of the way I appear and their own preferential fear or because I couldn’t love the things that they loved quite right And as I continued…

The Last Deaths of 2018

How the monster saved me today was our most recent and evidently last conversation. He was reminding me how much he missed me physically and that if we’d ever decided to be anything it would have been fun and then ultimately ruined One of us would fuck it up or possibly both of us and…

Bonus and commission eligibility

If I give you some and you don’t get all weird about it and you don’t try to hurt me with it and you don’t tell your friends about it and you don’t immediately regret it and you don’t lose your mind behind it and you don’t start lying to have more of it and…

Sugar Water Purple

If you were affluent you wouldn’t comment on being rich If you were talented hard work would just be consistent development If you were really generous no one could attach your name to gifts If you were spiritual organized religion would be something you’re against but you lie about balling out whilst you’re honestly broke…

The Metallic Aqua Blue Lacquer

I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything’s fine and as it should be and it’s not your fault. It really isn’t. It’s not your fault that I don’t know how to end things like a proper adult. I’m actually quite sorry so sorry that I’m crazy and I hang onto whoever the person is that is least…

The Weakling’s Lament

He said he loved me once as a joke and that was enough until a year later when he said it again and we’ll never know why he did- we’ll never know… twice now, in the years since I’ve known him he’s said that and he’ll never have to tell me again, ever in life-…

Needs Assessment

He asked me and then he begged. He insulted me and then he took it right back. He said I hurt him and then he said he couldn’t want me any more than right then. He promised to kiss my face off  and to put it on me. And I stopped fighting and he advised…

The Root Of Suffering

You don’t think that I know why you keep me in the background but it’s because I never do what you say I only do what you want… It’s because you can’t even really believe how lucky and cursed you are because I have happened to you for the time being for the best and…