What y’all left behind

It’s difficult not to think about on a rainy afternoon in January when you live in a one bedroom apartment by yourself in a suburb of Sacramento believe it or not, it really is so hard not to look back on the shit I kept and the shit I’ve thrown away see I’ve thrown away…

Les Demoiselles d’Avignon

I thought it was because I wasn’t well versed and I was unrehearsed or because I couldn’t get loving them quite right then I thought it must be because of the way I appear and their own preferential fear or because I couldn’t love the things that they loved quite right And as I continued…

Karaoke Night

And all the songs sound the same in that they all start off as broken dreams They all start off as underestimating me They all start off with a slow long vibrato Making you feel me when you don’t even want to And then comes the hook, the hook is the best Even if you…

Kenny Rogers

I saw the place that you put the things that matter to you. Accidentally, actually. And for the past couple of years the only content that you contributed were just pictures of your own face. Your face in the bathroom, your face on the road, your face next to your friends, or your face in…

Gremlins and Grinches

Christmas 1978- I don’t remember gifts but I remember that this is when I learned to hate and fear the snow and the cold. I opened the door one day to go outside and there was a wall of snow pouring in on me. My mom thought that this was funny. I had frost bite…

3noTionNsIntertWinEd

Of all of the bonehead, stupid, (I haven’t wasted a day) just know you narcissistic, selfish,  (not one a single loose thought) you make me lunatic, shitty decisions that (not a half of a micro moment)  make me feel vulnerable I’ve made with little provocation   . (on anything other than) vulnerable and submissive and zero…

When Villains Break Up

Dear Monster, I hate it when I’m unclear or at least when I am misunderstood. And I don’t want that between us. I can’t be succinct but let me explain why I must go, so you know… I gladly fantasize about you all of the time. Rarely do I think of anything else. But you…

Peripheral Neuropathy

After I throw the beautiful dead things away And wipe out the vase After I lay back down and cry covering my face But I don’t mean it and you don’t know it I sometimes say it but never show it…. After I destroy the pictures and the negatives on film After I tell myself I never loved…

Globs of Glue

Tip of the tongue Top of the teeth Doing what it is he does One million brilliant doves Tip of the handle Top of the bed Doing what feels cool Neglecting every written rule Cause he is a fool and I’m his tool Top of the morning Tip of the drill Doing what he wants…