Raw Emotional Chronic Relapse State

He promises me something. I fall for it every single time. He tells me that I’m the one. I want to believe his lies. He says that I win that I can leave knowing that no one else had conquered him but me. He tells me only because I’m leaving, I’m sure. And this must…

Exit 68

I am his full bodied flesh covered live wire Antsy hands all over my softest skin like he’s putting out a fire My water and his oil shaken together with fate’s emulsifier Shit can easily transpire Over here with my eyes alone pulling off his attire I am his butterfly covered bubble gum flavored pacifier…

Taking Stock

They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…

For the Folk in The Cheap Seats

If I always looked to see if my hands were shaking first If I always took a full deep breath through the nose exhaling through the mouth first If I always considered the collateral damage of my actions first then I wouldn’t have ever learned a fucking thing in this life or had a damn…

Insignificantfactorsingrandlifeequations

You know how much I love it when you beg. You’re hurting me with this now so pretend to care just a lil… If there is a hell I’m going because of you. You don’t even need me for this anymore so you’re being incredibly cruel. I don’t want to tell you to fuck off…

On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…

Bruce Lee

A broken down Greyhound Stuck in Birmingham Chopsticks for Bobbi pins Nothing but hand me downs Babysitting at 10 Running through the hood In nothing but Underoo’s Mom liked being used Given away, nowhere to stay Molestation attempts fueled by booze God doesn’t see any of this Torture isn’t news Excelling at academics No praise,…

Orville and Wilbur

I met the dude who liked apologizing and the one who only ever lied and I met the one who thought he was a pimp and the one who secretly tried I met the cute one with the fetishes and the ugly one who told jokes I met the one who threw around a ‘lil…

Esther Pauline “Eppie” Lederer

You like hanging onto nothing The boy is peanut butter in your hair Do not text the runner up when you are in this frame of mind Do not text the back up and tease him with your lying Do not text number two, or three, especially not fucking three Don’t become the vision you’re…

Big Ass Bully

I woke up and asked myself as if the chick inside me was the one I was simply observing and I asked her (really) You know this person is no good for you, can’t come with you, doesn’t want to be with you and on the flip side, you don’t want to be with him,…