Clouds Gather & Disperse

I don’t know what I felt or feel right now The horoscope predicted luck The wind didn’t fuck my hair up Even though the first interaction I had today was ‘you look tired’ And I thought bitch I just might be… And the night before someone had said to me I don’t know what I…

Quarks

Empty beer cans slight hunger traveling as far as I can no road under feeling indifferent traveling through spaceland and my mind’s eye searching for your face I almost cannot see Missing you but pushing through is the tiniest everything Full ashtray kinda high traveling with no seat belt heart in the sky feeling confident…

Robert Frost

When you begin genuinely, just like he said, you’ll never know from the start where it will end or how When you begin with something on your heart and in your mind but you’ll take whatever it gives you just the same But me I’ve been searching for peace up mountain tops with my soul…

Antigen

All twisted in knots not sure if I’m doomed Do I stand on top of or lie underneath you Do I treat you the way that I treat every other man Or do I twiddle my thumbs until you open your hand Do I find a replacement for the nights I am cold Or do I chastise…

Loyalty

And I can let him go… even though he saved me and then he put me in a closet, pressed in a book out of view like a dead flower and pulled me out every once in a while, wiping off the dust, smiling and then returning me to the closeness of yellowing pages in the darkness…

Expiation

Before yet another year Yet another day Yet another dawn Before I can grow and move on I have to take one last look At where I’ve fucked up Take a glance at the wrong I’ve done So in another day Another dawn Some good can come I’m not sorry about what I’ve learned I’m still testing…

Feeling Zaffre

No sweet brow sweat No lunging forward No backtracking from missteps No pale knuckled prayers No trials and errors No begging and pleading No trying to forgive yourself No hang overs or peddling back No wincing at lost wishes Just perfect lunches and high fives Sitting together arm and arm Sighing slowly and laughing Look…

The Drifter

You watch them smiling at you And all you see is teeth You try to explain your frustration and your fan club can’t believe They were born confident and satisfied They were raised on wholesome content You were born under a  dark rain cloud Your sickness is determined and intense You say, Hail this, hail that,…

oCtObeR

October In the morning when I wake I’ve had all I can take and the sun lets me start again. I don’t think you understand That I took a stand and I can’t sit here waiting for the coming judgment down from you Nothing left but live to do So I stay longer awake…. Instead,…

Non compos mentis

I really don’t have to think about any of this. I can train myself, to only think about moon light and what my next meal will be. But then I think, if all I am concerned with is food and shelter, then I am merely surviving in the world and isn’t the goal to be…