October 1582

In the span of 365 mornings and evenings You could learn to crawl You could start and stop and start You could fall in or down or off You could prove how crazy you really are to the one that you  claim to love You could come to grips with the fact that you and…

107 days in the Capital of California

In September the one skinny artist dude sweat and grunted too much so I opted out. Later that month the young gorgeous thug wanted to be a professional escort so I saw him out. In October the potential stalker felon cat fell in love with an idea because of blood’s warmth so I scared him…

The Metallic Aqua Blue Lacquer

I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything’s fine and as it should be and it’s not your fault. It really isn’t. It’s not your fault that I don’t know how to end things like a proper adult. I’m actually quite sorry so sorry that I’m crazy and I hang onto whoever the person is that is least…

Unrelated

The details of your face and smell are finally, fading and they say that expressing anger is always the best thing for you and maybe I’m a bullet dodger but the sound of your voice is becoming all of the voices of the past even though they say that many animals can form friendships with…

Never ending echoes

So I feel pretty terrible right now and I think it’s best that I get it all out so that I can not only go on with my day but my life. Deep breath. Yesterday Old Faithful e-mailed me at work. He was checking to see if I was still in Ohio and explained to…

Cockblocked

I want to write something that would make Nikki proud. Something that would make Zora nod, or Maya gleam from the stars above. I want to write something that would make Dorothy laugh or would have made Sylvia stay the course for one more day… Just one more day- But I ain’t got shit good…

Replica of Real Life

The picket fence is the dead line Once you walk through the silky bubble Of order and innocence and charm And feel your insignificance for the first time On the East or West Coast You either crumble into yourself and scurry back Or you break the invisible shackles and grow up for the first time The…

PAYING DUES

You’re Okay. It’s a huge hassle but guess what, It’s all going to end up fine. Trust me, you are going to be fine. You are already, see? Just look back at all that you have survived so far… This is just another one of those things Those tiring things Those headachy things Those temporarily…

The Two Letters

  Letter #1 My Dearest Adonis, We will all be dead soon. This is fact. And once we are dead there is no guarantee that we will meet again in another world, no promise our souls will float across the ether toward each other, truly, no tomorrow exists. It is incredibly selfish of me, I…

Smudge

Hearing that news was like being in the Mojave when its 117 degrees Fahrenheit and dropping the last spoonful of Dulce de Leche ice cream ~ cream-side down, onto a Cocker Spaniel hair covered shag carpet- it cannot be retrieved and you have suffered a loss. You will burn to death, dying of thirst covered in little brown dog…