Cherry Red Synapse of The Surgeon General

Whiskey on ice with a splash of sweet tea and listening to the Deftones got me wanting to lick shit off of other shit and this cigarette from the freezer won’t stay lit I keep forgetting about it my brain never shuts off it seems you’re on it and a billion other things stopping for…

October 1582

In the span of 365 mornings and evenings You could learn to crawl You could start and stop and start You could fall in or down or off You could prove how crazy you really are to the one that you  claim to love You could come to grips with the fact that you and…

Les Demoiselles d’Avignon

I thought it was because I wasn’t well versed and I was unrehearsed or because I couldn’t get loving them quite right then I thought it must be because of the way I appear and their own preferential fear or because I couldn’t love the things that they loved quite right And as I continued…

107 days in the Capital of California

In September the one skinny artist dude sweat and grunted too much so I opted out. Later that month the young gorgeous thug wanted to be a professional escort so I saw him out. In October the potential stalker felon cat fell in love with an idea because of blood’s warmth so I scared him…

The way the villain chills

Caught all up on it by brushing down invisible webs Dusted and swept up any bunnies clinging to coat tails Scratching out to do lists with new to do lists and getting everything done Thankful some was had and counting memories of fun Kicking it off to the side behind ajar Venetian blinds Scared to…

The Weakling’s Lament

He said he loved me once as a joke and that was enough until a year later when he said it again and we’ll never know why he did- we’ll never know… twice now, in the years since I’ve known him he’s said that and he’ll never have to tell me again, ever in life-…

43 years, 2 months and 18 days of pugilism

I catch myself staring at ceilings. I don’t know more than I think that I do. She should be so much further I tell myself, so much stronger by now. If you care you’re stupid too. I think everybody in every car around me is watching me drive and judging. I’m so far away from…

The Root Of Suffering

You don’t think that I know why you keep me in the background but it’s because I never do what you say I only do what you want… It’s because you can’t even really believe how lucky and cursed you are because I have happened to you for the time being for the best and…

Super Lifelike

Whatever I’m designed to feel, I’m feeling whatever is coming will inevitably hurt The trees aren’t swaying at all today So many things left to learn Whatever I’m supposed to see, I’m seeing whatever is gonna happen is in the works The breeze isn’t blowing at all today Yet everything around me burns Maybe I…

Auditioning Sidekicks

I texted the monster. I told him in case he needed me he had a way to contact me. Then I met Houdini. The right speech patterns, the right spirituality, the right artistic endeavors. But turns out like it turns out he isn’t the fucking brightest. We fucked anyway and we’ve already had a fight….