I don’t know what I felt or feel right now The horoscope predicted luck The wind didn’t fuck my hair up Even though the first interaction I had today was ‘you look tired’ And I thought bitch I just might be… And the night before someone had said to me I don’t know what I…
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Thunder Valley Casino
So shy in public but a rock god at home Crunching numbers in the office but singing show tunes alone And you may not be able to tell on the surface Clothes and smiles hide things But what entertains you when no one judges Is closer to who you really are than what I outwardly…
Quarks
Empty beer cans slight hunger traveling as far as I can no road under feeling indifferent traveling through spaceland and my mind’s eye searching for your face I almost cannot see Missing you but pushing through is the tiniest everything Full ashtray kinda high traveling with no seat belt heart in the sky feeling confident…
Kim Deal
Slowly but surely I’m scooping the balm of the sages on myself and lathering me up Surely yet slowly I’m coating the itchiness of insecurity with the salve of reality and clarity I heard it a million times before that nobody is perfect but I never let it sink into my skin deep enough before…
The Calculator
She’d counted. From the driver’s side door to her new office’s visitor’s entrance that opened onto the dimly lit main lobby was 342 steps. There were 4 bushes to the left of the double glass doors and 4 to the right. The walkway was graveled cement. 16 steps from the main floor to the second…
Ohio Renaissance Festival
When I was 41, I pissed on the chest of a 22 year old Abercrombie looking white boy who was a soccer and poker player in this apartment. I found out that it wasn’t just depression or PTSD or PMDD but Borderline Personality Disorder in this apartment. I frantically paced wondering where my son had…
Robert Frost
When you begin genuinely, just like he said, you’ll never know from the start where it will end or how When you begin with something on your heart and in your mind but you’ll take whatever it gives you just the same But me I’ve been searching for peace up mountain tops with my soul…
Battle not lest ye become…
I stare at you like you’re wounded and I am going to eat the flesh from your bones as soon as you get dizzy and weak and fall into my arms. I don’t like you anymore. Before, I wouldn’t make eye contact, couldn’t even, because I did not want you to see the fact that…
Prevention
If my head was in that space right now the space where ending it all was all that I could think about what would I want someone to say to me and mean wholeheartedly? I’d want to be told the following: ” Baby, come hug me. I hate when you don’t see in you what…
