2,261 Tuesdays

I made a fool of myself today I drank a beer today I brushed my teeth and my hair today I masturbated today I overshared today I lied today I day dreamed today Okay I had, like, two beers today I excommunicated some life draining humans today I rolled my eyes today I listened to…

What y’all left behind

It’s difficult not to think about on a rainy afternoon in January when you live in a one bedroom apartment by yourself in a suburb of Sacramento believe it or not, it really is so hard not to look back on the shit I kept and the shit I’ve thrown away see I’ve thrown away…

Dickrider

I wanna go to the casino I wanna go to the art museum I want to go to a fancy luxury theater I want to take pictures of my experiences to share with the world on social media so that they think I’ve been happy at some point and that I’ve done fun and important…

Portishead and Jim Beam

I’m weird because I can barely see and my┬ámind makes up the deficit by making me over feel… I’m hypersensitive as hell. Over here, over feeling. Everything is painful. Beauty. Hope. Love. Is there a such thing as better anymore if there ever was? I don’t know anything much if I ever did or if…

The Root Of Suffering

You don’t think that I know why you keep me in the background but it’s because I never do what you say I only do what you want… It’s because you can’t even really believe how lucky and cursed you are because I have happened to you for the time being for the best and…

Against the wind

I lack symmetry but I can still love me If I want to nobody will force me either way but either way I can’t get to perfection I can’t even get close I lack symmetry but I can still see the good in me If I wanted to and I know that nobody will force…

Dope on occasion

It’s brief but it’s necessary and it never goes unnoticed around here that all of a sudden and all at once lavender is wearing the wind green is its greenest birds chirp to the rhythm of your heart time laughs at your jokes rocks from mountain tops crackle softly while crumbling and Fuji apples taste…

Super Lifelike

Whatever I’m designed to feel, I’m feeling whatever is coming will inevitably hurt The trees aren’t swaying at all today So many things left to learn Whatever I’m supposed to see, I’m seeing whatever is gonna happen is in the works The breeze isn’t blowing at all today Yet everything around me burns Maybe I…

The Nephew of Ishmael

I’m a little antsy in a controlled way. You don’t know me and I don’t know you but it feels like we’ve met. I’m a little nervous in a giddy way. You don’t know me and I’ve never met you but it feels like we’ve kissed. I’m a little excited but not in a scared…

Ragazzo carino

I miss how your dick tastes. And I don’t care if you don’t miss me. I couldn’t be there anymore and not have you anyway. I miss your cum in my throat. Standing right in front of you, breathing your air used to be my favorite thing to do. I wish that you hadn’t gotten…