White Boys in the 80’s

Nate was the first boy I ever thought I loved. He was Tom Cruise and Jon Bender or at least as close as I ever thought that I’d get to them I knew him since he was 8 we went to the same Sunday School and Wednesday Night services and he was a bad kid…

Les Demoiselles d’Avignon

I thought it was because I wasn’t well versed and I was unrehearsed or because I couldn’t get loving them quite right then I thought it must be because of the way I appear and their own preferential fear or because I couldn’t love the things that they loved quite right And as I continued…

Flakes of flattery near the onset of winter

If she’s pretty, tell her. If she smiles, leave her alone. If she touches you, she’s glad you think so. If she says thanks, she might rob you. If she says, oh yeah? She might rob you. If she says, uhm…you too. She’s on some freak shit. If she says but I’m a man, say…

Sugar Water Purple

If you were affluent you wouldn’t comment on being rich If you were talented hard work would just be consistent development If you were really generous no one could attach your name to gifts If you were spiritual organized religion would be something you’re against but you lie about balling out whilst you’re honestly broke…

Bug on the wall of the Bacchanal

No! God! And how come one of the gods revealed it to him and not me I’d have spared his suffering Got him to the airport early We could have traveled anywhere with our lips But how could he so easily see and draw my attention Gaze so soft and now we’re lost No checked…

Chicken bones in ashtrays

The secret moves that you make that no one ever sees- like the I look cute mirror dance.. or how you shame others when you’ve been shamed… or the way your face is ugly when you sing a song you really love… or the smile in the corner of your lips when you cry… the…

3 Doors Down

Richard, my imaginary boyfriend, is pissed at me, yet again, you guys. Last Night: I was sad. I felt lonely. So I said, Dick? Where are you? Come tell me you love me. And I didn’t hear anything. He hesitated. Reluctantly he came to my mind and said softly, you know I love you… But,…

They drink La Cerveza del Pacifico Clara around here

This is the part that gets so hard for me. The part where I don’t know what to feel or how to trust it. I’m a fucking nightmare. I was told recently or I read somewhere that if I want to ever trust other people, I have to learn to trust myself. And I don’t…

Never ending echoes

So I feel pretty terrible right now and I think it’s best that I get it all out so that I can not only go on with my day but my life. Deep breath. Yesterday Old Faithful e-mailed me at work. He was checking to see if I was still in Ohio and explained to…

Ode to Incubus

I don’t know where I’d be If you weren’t always beside me I don’t know where I’d go If I couldn’t find you when I needed… ’cause there’s been some times In my really very short life Where I was flying blind But I had you there to guide me I don’t know where I’d…