Exit 68

I am his full bodied flesh covered live wire Antsy hands all over my softest skin like he’s putting out a fire My water and his oil shaken together with fate’s emulsifier Shit can easily transpire Over here with my eyes alone pulling off his attire I am his butterfly covered bubble gum flavored pacifier…

Jean-Paul Sartre

The wind was sweet and cold. I was leaving my job and heading toward my car, thankful that the day wasn’t worrisome. My phone was too hot because I’d left it in the car all day and just looking at it, you crossed my mind. I wondered where you were and how nice it would…

The Unisex Outerwear Collection by H&M

I’ve learned a lot about myself from you, young man. I’m grateful that I’ve met you. I had only ever had sex in the past 26 years with one other person where I wasn’t fantasizing about some other partner not in the same room and it was only one time. I craved him for a…

Taking Stock

They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…

The Man With The Yellow Hat Is Drunk

Just because there is no one else that I can choke and slap Just because there is no one else that I can lead off beaten paths Just because there is no one else that I want riding next to me Just because there is no one else that looks better on their knees Just…

DSM VI

People like me, like us, often have no choice but to talk to themselves because there really isn’t anyone else to talk to. I must tell myself to calm down. And a lot of times the reason that there isn’t anyone else around is because people like me, like us, have systematically pushed anyone who…

For the Folk in The Cheap Seats

If I always looked to see if my hands were shaking first If I always took a full deep breath through the nose exhaling through the mouth first If I always considered the collateral damage of my actions first then I wouldn’t have ever learned a fucking thing in this life or had a damn…

Ressentiment

  I very nearly told you…   About where I’m headed How leaving you was dreaded About how much gloating I’d done In front of everyone About how I felt about you And why I can’t continue And why I’m not going to connect About how I hate when you deflect About my heart’s suture…

Insignificantfactorsingrandlifeequations

You know how much I love it when you beg. You’re hurting me with this now so pretend to care just a lil… If there is a hell I’m going because of you. You don’t even need me for this anymore so you’re being incredibly cruel. I don’t want to tell you to fuck off…

On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…