Auditioning Sidekicks

I texted the monster. I told him in case he needed me he had a way to contact me. Then I met Houdini. The right speech patterns, the right spirituality, the right artistic endeavors. But turns out like it turns out he isn’t the fucking brightest. We fucked anyway and we’ve already had a fight….

Son Lux

The thing that I like about him the best is that he said exactly what he thought that this association should look like right out of the gate. My god. He didn’t try to trick me He didn’t try to manipulate me He didn’t try to see where I was vulnerable and exploit me He…

Sugar Baby Potential

Just in case he never comes back which would be a rookie mistake on his part I feel that I need to say that he came as advertised even though he lied He pretended to be closer in age Just to get next to me The creep of Destiny And I didn’t act right, I…

Salt rimmed Margaritas on the rocks

Normally it’s all up to me The venue the view and the price tag Normally because I’m in control I decide where the thing will go but I never really know so, I yo yo It never occurred to me that anyone dealing with the shit that I was dishing out was a fool But…

Eudaimonia

I am a feminist spy. I am an experimental philematologist. I am a backsliding monogamist. I am a freshman seeker. I am a cannabis consumer. But if it all boiled down to who I really am and the face of my soul must be named then I am nothing more than a drunken bard… if…

Clouds Gather & Disperse

I don’t know what I felt or feel right now The horoscope predicted luck The wind didn’t fuck my hair up Even though the first interaction I had today was ‘you look tired’ And I thought bitch I just might be… And the night before someone had said to me I don’t know what I…

Thunder Valley Casino

So shy in public but a rock god at home Crunching numbers in the office but singing show tunes alone And you may not be able to tell on the surface Clothes and smiles hide things But what entertains you when no one judges Is closer to who you really are than what I outwardly…

Kim Deal

Slowly but surely I’m scooping the balm of the sages on myself and lathering me up Surely yet slowly I’m coating the itchiness of insecurity with the salve of reality and clarity I heard it a million times before that nobody is perfect but I never let it sink into my skin deep enough before…

Me and My Brain

Self Control is masochistic It’s frustrating so I drown it. I’m everything I ever wanted to be but It hurts so bad so I drown it. Misery is prolific Its painful so I drown it. Striving is pathetic It’s killing me because I drown in it. I swallow endlessly I’m drowning… I’m drowning… Its hopeless…

14 hours before I move back to California

Perhaps if I hadn’t thought I could no longer live in Indiana because I couldn’t find any love there I would never have moved to Upland, California in 2005 and I would never have met the Man from Moreno Valley and I would never moved to Vegas with him and I would never have left…