Museum Parking for Bitches

Tapping into me at age 7 and I was spectacular I was the only child in the house then And although my mom didn’t pay me much attention I had three doting aunts and a cool ass uncle and they let me do whatever I wanted which was mostly read books and sing and pretend…

The Metallic Aqua Blue Lacquer

I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything’s fine and as it should be and it’s not your fault. It really isn’t. It’s not your fault that I don’t know how to end things like a proper adult. I’m actually quite sorry so sorry that I’m crazy and I hang onto whoever the person is that is least…

The Weakling’s Lament

He said he loved me once as a joke and that was enough until a year later when he said it again and we’ll never know why he did- we’ll never know… twice now, in the years since I’ve known him he’s said that and he’ll never have to tell me again, ever in life-…

They drink La Cerveza del Pacifico Clara around here

This is the part that gets so hard for me. The part where I don’t know what to feel or how to trust it. I’m a fucking nightmare. I was told recently or I read somewhere that if I want to ever trust other people, I have to learn to trust myself. And I don’t…

Never ending echoes

So I feel pretty terrible right now and I think it’s best that I get it all out so that I can not only go on with my day but my life. Deep breath. Yesterday Old Faithful e-mailed me at work. He was checking to see if I was still in Ohio and explained to…

Tamashe

Maybe I’m ready to have a good time. I’ve earned these belly rolls. I’m old enough to stop apologizing for doing things for my comfort alone. The 43rd anniversary of my birth is in 8 days. Maybe I’m ready to be my own home. I’ve paid a few dues. So I’m old enough to not…

Junkanoo

She said I’m disgusting and I am acting out Meanwhile everyone else in the room wants to get to know me He loves me beyond a shadow of a doubt But she is getting her rocks off by scolding Everybody’s using every body is using everybody using me… She said I am rude as a…

Thursday at Mallard Landing

I’m sick of you, I’m sick of me Always ending, always ending I’m sick of yearning and not being… Selah Lip curled, ego bruised Nothing new, nothing new Come volunteer for my vapid use… Selah I’m sick of you, I’m sick of you I’m sick of you, I’m sick of me I’m sick of our constant nothing…

Philophiliac

Chords are changing Improvisational riffs Traversing all paths between the beginning and the cliff This one is my hip hop, gritty and real That one is my jazz with a melodious feel The other is my hard rock headbanging mischief The latest is the electronic rhythmic mystic Nothing consistent over the bass yet it fits But it…

Trouble fond

I’ve fucked you. And so that there is no confusion about my intentions I do want you, you know that. I’ve choked you. If I could, I’d keep you in a shoe box in my closet but I’m not delusional. I’ve sucked you. I know that want doesn’t ever equal get…nor should it. I’ve torn…