The Weakling’s Lament

He said he loved me once as a joke and that was enough until a year later when he said it again and we’ll never know why he did- we’ll never know… twice now, in the years since I’ve known him he’s said that and he’ll never have to tell me again, ever in life-…

43 years, 2 months and 18 days of pugilism

I catch myself staring at ceilings. I don’t know more than I think that I do. She should be so much further I tell myself, so much stronger by now. If you care you’re stupid too. I think everybody in every car around me is watching me drive and judging. I’m so far away from…

The Root Of Suffering

You don’t think that I know why you keep me in the background but it’s because I never do what you say I only do what you want… It’s because you can’t even really believe how lucky and cursed you are because I have happened to you for the time being for the best and…

Unrelated

The details of your face and smell are finally, fading and they say that expressing anger is always the best thing for you and maybe I’m a bullet dodger but the sound of your voice is becoming all of the voices of the past even though they say that many animals can form friendships with…

Ain’t no Network TV here, doll

I stayed present for you. It’s weird how it always feels like we’ve been at this you and me for a million years and You don’t let my mind stray away to yesterday so thank you because I can still feel you inside me for hours after you leave regardless of how I was feeling…

The Nephew of Ishmael

I’m a little antsy in a controlled way. You don’t know me and I don’t know you but it feels like we’ve met. I’m a little nervous in a giddy way. You don’t know me and I’ve never met you but it feels like we’ve kissed. I’m a little excited but not in a scared…

When Irish Whiskey Speaks for Me

Aye, first of all, you’re too loud. No seriously, seriously, we’re all adults here. All of us. Calm down, okay? Every one. You got that? There’s no reason to raise your voice to or at anyone here, there’s no one here, honey who doesn’t understand what you mean. All we can ask for from one…

Clouds Gather & Disperse

I don’t know what I felt or feel right now The horoscope predicted luck The wind didn’t fuck my hair up Even though the first interaction I had today was ‘you look tired’ And I thought bitch I just might be… And the night before someone had said to me I don’t know what I…

Battle not lest ye become…

I stare at you like you’re wounded and I am going to eat the flesh from your bones as soon as you get dizzy and weak and fall into my arms. I don’t like you anymore. Before, I wouldn’t make eye contact, couldn’t even, because I did not want you to see the fact that…

Mon plaisir…

You were the cleverest, most charming wordsmith that I had ever seen. Nobody loved you and hurt you as much as me. The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that obscure Carmel pub… The jukebox playing music from my favorite band in that sports bar in Henderson… The jukebox playing music from my…