Just in case he never comes back which would be a rookie mistake on his part I feel that I need to say that he came as advertised even though he lied He pretended to be closer in age Just to get next to me The creep of Destiny And I didn’t act right, I…
Tag: choices
Salt rimmed Margaritas on the rocks
Normally it’s all up to me The venue the view and the price tag Normally because I’m in control I decide where the thing will go but I never really know so, I yo yo It never occurred to me that anyone dealing with the shit that I was dishing out was a fool But…
Clouds Gather & Disperse
I don’t know what I felt or feel right now The horoscope predicted luck The wind didn’t fuck my hair up Even though the first interaction I had today was ‘you look tired’ And I thought bitch I just might be… And the night before someone had said to me I don’t know what I…
Thunder Valley Casino
So shy in public but a rock god at home Crunching numbers in the office but singing show tunes alone And you may not be able to tell on the surface Clothes and smiles hide things But what entertains you when no one judges Is closer to who you really are than what I outwardly…
Quarks
Empty beer cans slight hunger traveling as far as I can no road under feeling indifferent traveling through spaceland and my mind’s eye searching for your face I almost cannot see Missing you but pushing through is the tiniest everything Full ashtray kinda high traveling with no seat belt heart in the sky feeling confident…
Karaoke Night
And all the songs sound the same in that they all start off as broken dreams They all start off as underestimating me They all start off with a slow long vibrato Making you feel me when you don’t even want to And then comes the hook, the hook is the best Even if you…
Kim Deal
Slowly but surely I’m scooping the balm of the sages on myself and lathering me up Surely yet slowly I’m coating the itchiness of insecurity with the salve of reality and clarity I heard it a million times before that nobody is perfect but I never let it sink into my skin deep enough before…
Me and My Brain
Self Control is masochistic It’s frustrating so I drown it. I’m everything I ever wanted to be but It hurts so bad so I drown it. Misery is prolific Its painful so I drown it. Striving is pathetic It’s killing me because I drown in it. I swallow endlessly I’m drowning… I’m drowning… Its hopeless…
14 hours before I move back to California
Perhaps if I hadn’t thought I could no longer live in Indiana because I couldn’t find any love there I would never have moved to Upland, California in 2005 and I would never have met the Man from Moreno Valley and I would never moved to Vegas with him and I would never have left…
Green Tea Extract
For the entire time that I was consciously aware Of what was happening around me and who people pretended to be and what the world said that they should have been juxtaposed with the reality of what they were I always felt so sorry for my grandma. Not only sorry that she grew up in…
