Nothing will ever fill the hole. I know that. And all I am doing is pretending that I have that thing. Whatever that thing is. Is it hope? Is it talent? Is it other people? Nothing I ever do will give me the people that I should have had And being mad at them won’t…
Tag: choices
By Myself Forever
I like your natural hair today and your natural face and your natural hips and your natural belly and your crazy eyes. I don’t wish for you to be different but in the ways that make you a better version of you to you and for you. You wait for other people to tell you…
Super Lifelike
Whatever I’m designed to feel, I’m feeling whatever is coming will inevitably hurt The trees aren’t swaying at all today So many things left to learn Whatever I’m supposed to see, I’m seeing whatever is gonna happen is in the works The breeze isn’t blowing at all today Yet everything around me burns Maybe I…
Gray hairs on Sweaters
In my mind you’re the finish line. My fantasy has always been slightly different from yours Mine has a lot to do with us being together in the mornings and not just at night… but I’ma fix it… Even though I can’t force your hand. I’ma fix it. In my mind you’re the trophy. Unfortunately…
Warren G and Gluten Free
I’m sorry it’s hard to stop. I’m back in grad school now and I’m panicking. It’s actually pretty fucking great, that’s the problem. It’s legit wonderful. I like school. I like order. I’m trying. I take cranberry pills and plant based digestive enzymes and green tea supplements now. I meditate on Wednesdays and listen to…
Light Switch
I mean yeah We could go out but If we do, I’m gonna order whiskey neat and a beer back and then I’m going to find the Jukebox and play a bunch of Incubus songs in a row then more than likely, I’m going to be ready for another round before you’ve even gotten halfway…
A necklace of Smarties in October
You can have it fast and cheap. A couple of domestic beers at a dive bar nearby for some karaoke. If fun is your objective, it’ll be just that. But it’ll end right there. You can have it fast and good. A conversation at a bookstore slash coffee shop after work. If friendship is your…
Crazy Foxes
You didn’t think I’d find the fuckery but I always do I see the smears and smudges clearly I see the direction of the dust and the mud trails My eyes are wide open and I’m looking for shit And I never stop until I find it You’re not special like I thought or unique…
The Nephew of Ishmael
I’m a little antsy in a controlled way. You don’t know me and I don’t know you but it feels like we’ve met. I’m a little nervous in a giddy way. You don’t know me and I’ve never met you but it feels like we’ve kissed. I’m a little excited but not in a scared…
Mynewbestie
I couldn’t remember where I put that bill but she knew that I would forget so she wrote down all of the information and saved it for me on my work computer. And when it was time to pay the bill, I forgot for a minute, that the actual paper was gone. I looked for…
