Ressentiment

  I very nearly told you…   About where I’m headed How leaving you was dreaded About how much gloating I’d done In front of everyone About how I felt about you And why I can’t continue And why I’m not going to connect About how I hate when you deflect About my heart’s suture…

Oldhead

When you scared as hell but you still wanna try To put the past on the shelf and kiss old loves goodbye So you clean out the closet and puff out your chest And whisper I’m sorry and let karma decide whats best Then you slap on shiny lipstick and say it’s all good And take…

The everlasting ephemeral

I can close my eyelid down, blocking out the light assuredly feeling still the heat of the day each second a never ending connection to all before and after hunting to sleep in a cradle of calm waves with nowhere to fade away I can close my emotional center, blocking out heart beats hazarding to voice…

Skinned knees

At the risk of sounding foolish I needed you so much that I didn’t feel whole without you. And I hated it. I hate you for allowing yourself to be my human addiction for so long watching me clinging on to the person that you pretended to be. At the risk of sounding foolish I…

Piqua

Quiet mornings and solemn nights Crazy moments and roving ojos Lazy habits and anecdotal lies Dreaming of other things and versions of nosotros Wishing what I can and loving only absolutes of absolutely nothing Quiet mornings and solemn nights Crazy moments and roving ojos Living for now and dinosaur ties Driving to the edge of easy cielos Wanting what…

Today’s Sucker

I feel most comfortable in flip flops and a Wonder Woman Tee I feel comfortable when you are looking directly at me I feel triumphant when I sing falsetto soprano in the right key I feel illuminated when you do unnecessary things for me and to me and with me And I have so much…

Eidolon

I feel disconnected from me and nearly empty Traveling the world makes home feel flat and fictional And you have to ask your entirety If you loved it here why would you leave? And maybe there is nothing wrong with the present But just with you and your sullied point of view That normally only sees inferiority…

C21 H23 NO5

He gone say, I got you And she say uh huh , sure She’s morphine to his fiend He can’t resist the pull But he never stops Never stops coming when she calls And he does whatever he promises And she gone take it all She gone take his breath and reasons She gone steal his heart…

The Day Pixie Found Herself

She said no that day and threw the clothes that she had bought him away She bought some face wash and herbal tea and and wrote some poetry She listened when her son said you should stop going back She listened when her friends said you’re so much better than that She put on black lipstick and…

The Putz

It could all change anything could be Nonstop opportunities to test life’s boundary Water could turn pink Sharks could fly across the sky You could be the answer And I could nearly die Everything is fluid nothing stays the same You say you’ve never loved me But it could all change