Now that I actually noticed it I’m thinking about all these scenarios where I really thought that I was in love with this guy and he was like everything and then, now that I remember correctly something about that situation was related to period sex. I don’t know what love is, I never did. Either…
Tag: life
Hominids at Home
Happily hating everything that we’ve ever made or done or said because the way we build includes and requires deconstruction we all function as our future and our demise a prize for a limited time so while we use it all up including our selves we destroy balance with accidental purpose happily hating everything and…
What y’all left behind
It’s difficult not to think about on a rainy afternoon in January when you live in a one bedroom apartment by yourself in a suburb of Sacramento believe it or not, it really is so hard not to look back on the shit I kept and the shit I’ve thrown away see I’ve thrown away…
Cherry Red Synapse of The Surgeon General
Whiskey on ice with a splash of sweet tea and listening to the Deftones got me wanting to lick shit off of other shit and this cigarette from the freezer won’t stay lit I keep forgetting about it my brain never shuts off it seems you’re on it and a billion other things stopping for…
Gamma Butyrolactone
A full work day damn near 7 hours He came over at 11:30 AM I was worried but I wasn’t afraid of him He felt the same fucking way, scared because he could have encountered anything that reckless gambling but he got me and I got a work day from him too but it felt…
Les Demoiselles d’Avignon
I thought it was because I wasn’t well versed and I was unrehearsed or because I couldn’t get loving them quite right then I thought it must be because of the way I appear and their own preferential fear or because I couldn’t love the things that they loved quite right And as I continued…
Portishead and Jim Beam
I’m weird because I can barely see and my mind makes up the deficit by making me over feel… I’m hypersensitive as hell. Over here, over feeling. Everything is painful. Beauty. Hope. Love. Is there a such thing as better anymore if there ever was? I don’t know anything much if I ever did or if…
The way the villain chills
Caught all up on it by brushing down invisible webs Dusted and swept up any bunnies clinging to coat tails Scratching out to do lists with new to do lists and getting everything done Thankful some was had and counting memories of fun Kicking it off to the side behind ajar Venetian blinds Scared to…
The Last Deaths of 2018
How the monster saved me today was our most recent and evidently last conversation. He was reminding me how much he missed me physically and that if we’d ever decided to be anything it would have been fun and then ultimately ruined One of us would fuck it up or possibly both of us and…
