Unrelated

The details of your face and smell are finally, fading and they say that expressing anger is always the best thing for you and maybe I’m a bullet dodger but the sound of your voice is becoming all of the voices of the past even though they say that many animals can form friendships with…

Gray hairs on Sweaters

In my mind you’re the finish line. My fantasy has always been slightly different from yours Mine has a lot to do with us being together in the mornings and not just at night… but I’ma fix it… Even though I can’t force your hand. I’ma fix it. In my mind you’re the trophy. Unfortunately…

Warren G and Gluten Free

I’m sorry it’s hard to stop. I’m back in grad school now and I’m panicking. It’s actually pretty fucking great, that’s the problem. It’s legit wonderful. I like school. I like order. I’m trying. I take cranberry pills and plant based digestive enzymes and green tea supplements now. I meditate on Wednesdays and listen to…

Ragazzo carino

I miss how your dick tastes. And I don’t care if you don’t miss me. I couldn’t be there anymore and not have you anyway. I miss your cum in my throat. Standing right in front of you, breathing your air used to be my favorite thing to do. I wish that you hadn’t gotten…

Doc Savage

I’ve forgotten all the times I bit my tongue until it bled I can’t remember how many fires have touched my hands I don’t know how many times in life I have spit something out But I recall very clearly every time a part of you touched my mouth The first time and the last…

Never ending echoes

So I feel pretty terrible right now and I think it’s best that I get it all out so that I can not only go on with my day but my life. Deep breath. Yesterday Old Faithful e-mailed me at work. He was checking to see if I was still in Ohio and explained to…

When Irish Whiskey Speaks for Me

Aye, first of all, you’re too loud. No seriously, seriously, we’re all adults here. All of us. Calm down, okay? Every one. You got that? There’s no reason to raise your voice to or at anyone here, there’s no one here, honey who doesn’t understand what you mean. All we can ask for from one…

Auditioning Sidekicks

I texted the monster. I told him in case he needed me he had a way to contact me. Then I met Houdini. The right speech patterns, the right spirituality, the right artistic endeavors. But turns out like it turns out he isn’t the fucking brightest. We fucked anyway and we’ve already had a fight….

14 hours before I move back to California

Perhaps if I hadn’t thought I could no longer live in Indiana because I couldn’t find any love there I would never have moved to Upland, California in 2005 and I would never have met the Man from Moreno Valley and I would never moved to Vegas with him and I would never have left…

The Odyssey and the Iliad

This is the test and I’ve got to fucking manage it. My stability has only ever been attached to necessity- somebody needing me and for 18 years my child did. After my 2nd suicide attempt when I wanted to go left and sideways and my son was too little still to appreciate my efforts somehow after…