White Boys in the 80’s

Nate was the first boy I ever thought I loved. He was Tom Cruise and Jon Bender or at least as close as I ever thought that I’d get to them I knew him since he was 8 we went to the same Sunday School and Wednesday Night services and he was a bad kid…

Genghis Khanfidence

Now that I actually noticed it I’m thinking about all these scenarios where I really thought that I was in love with this guy and he was like everything and then, now that I remember correctly something about that situation was related to period sex. I don’t know what love is, I never did. Either…

The Calamitous Uncontrolled Dick Cry

Can I desire you first one time? I want you. But I’m not supposed to say. Can I show you what you may have missed being blind? I want to see you. But it shouldn’t go this way. Can I desire you first one time? I want to fuck you. But I’m not supposed to…

Diffusion Techniques Incorporated

Like ketchup gets out blood stains Like body odor can mask bad breath Like a car wash is just waiting ’til it rains Like the relevance of your bills after death The shit got handled one way or the other and there wasn’t much left for you to do ’cause karma knows exactly how to…

2,261 Tuesdays

I made a fool of myself today I drank a beer today I brushed my teeth and my hair today I masturbated today I overshared today I lied today I day dreamed today Okay I had, like, two beers today I excommunicated some life draining humans today I rolled my eyes today I listened to…

Lady Philosophy

It’ll twist you up, I promise. You’ll follow all the rules and fail. You’ll read and re-read the formula and fuck it up. And so you grasp on desperately clinging to any little thing you can repeat you keep turning the other cheek because you heard that somewhere and you keep inviting dumb ass people…

What y’all left behind

It’s difficult not to think about on a rainy afternoon in January when you live in a one bedroom apartment by yourself in a suburb of Sacramento believe it or not, it really is so hard not to look back on the shit I kept and the shit I’ve thrown away see I’ve thrown away…

Cherry Red Synapse of The Surgeon General

Whiskey on ice with a splash of sweet tea and listening to the Deftones got me wanting to lick shit off of other shit and this cigarette from the freezer won’t stay lit I keep forgetting about it my brain never shuts off it seems you’re on it and a billion other things stopping for…

October 1582

In the span of 365 mornings and evenings You could learn to crawl You could start and stop and start You could fall in or down or off You could prove how crazy you really are to the one that you  claim to love You could come to grips with the fact that you and…

Gamma Butyrolactone

A full work day damn near 7 hours He came over at 11:30 AM I was worried but I wasn’t afraid of him He felt the same fucking way, scared because he could have encountered anything that reckless gambling but he got me and I got a work day from him too but it felt…