Dirty Friendships

The nature of the majority of my relationships with males outside my family who are not gay is lascivious. As I try to recall what circumstances presented themselves in an opportune fashion to facilitate this, I assume some sort of body language or joking was in place- I still don’t understand that some how  minor flirtations escalated to the point that we decided that we would like to have sex with each other, we will probably taunt each other with sexual innuendo but we will never actually do anything about it. ( I’m sure that last part was not a mutually decided course of action.) Some of these men are indeed old lovers and to this day they enjoy some, 15 to 20 years later, revisiting said acts and reliving their youthful prowess through our trysts and I won’t deny anyone that because they are old and married. others have barely been within pheromone distance and can regale tales of intimacies with me that boggle the mind. Perhaps a certain kind of man, a horny man with many female friends that he consistently flirts with seek out my friendship. This would seem the logical answer except for  many of them don’t seem to have much female contact at all, save one or two long time acquaintances.  They are often rather shy and something about me brings out their freaky undertones. I suppose I don’t mind as much as it seems with this post, however I do not dress or carry myself like a “lady of the evening”, yet they still cross my paths and that’s the path our friendship goes down. I’m just concerned that perhaps I should turn this into a business venture and start a phone sex line, I mean there is no point, they say, in doing what you are good at for free. This was never my intention. It could be as simple as I like men better than I like females and I like sex more than typically trained females like to admit so to the untrained eye it comes off as a little tawdry when in actuality its harmless. It is however difficult to maintain all of these dirty friendships whenever I am in some sort of semi monogamous affair – we are all aware of how egos are easily bruised. I guess the bottom line question is if I could get away with having a physical relationship with all of them, no strings attached and maintain our current level of communication without being labeled negatively or any stigma backlash, would I?

Of course.