I dial a number to speak to my friend. He says the snow is lasting longer because the earth is warmer.
I forgot to put on socks but I don’t care because
I really just want some dopamine-
I jump on my e-mail to message another friend.
He says that humans refuse to accept their impending demise.
I forgot to clean my fingernails but I don’t care because
I really just need a serotonin boost-
I scream out the window hello at a stranger.
He says fuck you, you crazy bitch and be quiet!
I forgot that flinging potted plants at people is illegal and I don’t care because
I really just want norepinephrine
No one called back today, probably because of global warming
No one e-mailed back today, probably planning funerals
The stranger called the cops at least, I can hear the sirens buzzing
And I forgot that I was a human
I forgot that I need approval
I forgot that my hair won’t comb itself
And all I really wanted was nicotine
or tryptophan or ketamine or a kiss or something
to keep me from losing my mind.
My Mind, My Mood, My delicately poisoned pen... 