At around 6:30 PM I get a call from Bingo.

(This is all in my imagination none of this ever happened)

 He is telling me that he wishes that he was available because the carnival is in town and if he were he would come get me and we would ride the rides and laugh at people and have an alright good time. NO GIRL HAS THIS KIND OF LUCK. I would say that I wish he was available too.

(This is me, In Love)

 And then when I hang up he is at the door with the tickets in his hand and we get in his car and go to the carnival midway, arm in arm, eating elephant’s ears and drinking frozen lemonade and we ride the ferris wheel and its cold up there so he let’s me wear his sweater and it smells like man and its so big on me and he kisses my neck until the ride is over.

( I day dream this fantasy all of the time)

He takes me home and tells me he loves me and kisses me goodnight and I open my door to a candle lit room covered in the most cliche yet beautiful rose petals and Adonis is in my house and he has made a fire and shut off all the lights and oiled him self up and I can see him glistening in the flames. NO GIRL HAS THIS KIND OF LUCK. I am extremely excited and the talking is minimized after he says, I know this is what you want and takes me right there on the floor.

(This is me, In Love)

When we are completely exhausted from lovemaking and totally out of breath he runs a bath for me gets dressed and says he cant wait to see me again and goes home without so much as a complaint or whisper and I dip my sore body into the warm tub and Splenda calls.

(This is all in my imagination none of this ever happened)

 He tells me over the phone how much he loves me, and how much he loved me in high-school and how beautiful I still am all of these years later and how glad that he is that he is still a part of my life and how much I mean to him and how he wishes that he could marry me and I am so full off the sweetness of the whole thing that my face turns a beet red which he can’t even see.

(This is me, In Love)

 He has the sexiest most romantic voice and he reads poetry to me while I am in the bath over the phone until I softly fall asleep. After a few minutes I rinse myself off and go lay on my bed and I hear familiar footsteps in the hall.

 ( I day dream this fantasy all of the time)

The shadow is that of Trevon glowing by the window. He has come to tuck me in. We don’t talk and he doesn’t undress he just removes my robe and gives me the most thrilling and powerful full body massage un-tensing and releasing every tight fiber of my being and I am limp in his hands. Saved even. NO GIRL HAS THIS KIND OF LUCK. The experience ends by Trevon kissing my other face and sucking my other lips until I tear the cases off my pillows for freedom from his hot wet mouth.

(This is me, In Love)

He leaves quietly as he came and Bingo calls again. He tells me he wants to kiss me goodnight. So I let him know the door is unlocked and he comes up stairs and gets into bed and we lie there together in each others arms and I have the most wonderful sleep.

(This is all in my imagination none of this ever happened)

(This is me, In Love)

NO GIRL HAS THIS KIND OF LUCK.