To the eye unclothed
How instantaneous my choice seems
A reckless decision immediate
How brave I must be
But it doesn’t happen that way for me
Ten weeks ago I felt sick
Eight weeks ago I lost my breath
Five weeks ago Jogging became painful
Two weeks ago my teeth seemed grey
Two nights ago, I couldn’t wake up
because apnea had taken hold of me 
in the night so
me throwing a fresh pack of cigarettes
in the trash and yelling, I’m quitting
seems like some crazy random poof
But the decision took two months.
So Now I’m standing here
Telling you that I choose you
And you have known me since I was 8.
To the eye unclothed
How instantaneous my choice seems
A reckless decision immediate
How long would you guess 
that this decision could take?
I love you.