I wasn’t your girl
I never knew where you lived
or what you liked to eat
I still get a craving though
For your smile and hands and neck
More when I’m all alone
I wring my hands now
Sometimes I try to see how long I can go without breathing
I want you
It makes no sense
It seems strange
I mean I never called you at all

You weren’t my man
I never went out with you on a date

We just met and we knew and we did
and we loved and we laughed and we lay there sweating
And every now and again
Regardless of the town
or the suitor
regardless of the day or the time
every once in a while
I pick up a new filthy habit
to just try and get over
that summer when every night
I felt amazing and light and new
The anticipation was crazy
chemistry so weird
I wasn’t your anything
you were my nothing yet
Sometimes I reminisce especially when a craving hits
For your touch your kiss your chest
And out of nowhere all of a sudden
All I want makes no sense
Seems so strange
After so much time, am I still, willing?