I want you here.

I want you to kiss me on my forehead and pass me a danish and a cup of coffee

Before I blog a poem for the day.

I want you to say that

You can’t wait until we go to

Puerto Rico together

Or Sicily

Or Singapore.

I want to shower with you and brush our teeth together

And laugh about your attempt

At making Swedish Meatballs

Last night while

We prepare to go for our

Sunday afternoon walk

Arm and arm

In the park.

I want you here.

I will survive on a text while I finish a warm beer

Before I blog a poem about you for the day.

I want you to say that

You wish you were here too

And just being together

Was your favorite adventure.

But you don’t exist.

You will never come.

And I will never forgive you for that.

So instead I must breathe deeply

Enjoy my solo shower and coffee and beer in the same glass

Smile bravely and greet the day

Longing for you and

Settling for me.