Only sounding boards need apply

An SOS Distress Signal is sent out into the world.

Is anyone out there that can hear me?

I hate seeking help

Outside of myself

Because it reminds me of how fragile I can be.

Even monsters get lonely.

Smoke signal wafting across the world.

Does anyone see the design?

I wish that I had what some call a friend

A true friend who would always be there for me

Even during the times I couldn’t give back

With open arms and a listening ear

Who didn’t want anything but for me to be me and they to be them and we to be us.

I’m painting the writing on the wall signal across the whole world.

Does anyone hear me at all?

I ache for an impossible friend

That didn’t judge but lifted up and supported

The hopes and dreams that define me.

Even bad guys belly up to bars.

And I search for that help

Hating every moment of seeking

Finding finally that the more I search

For someone to talk to

To share my frustrations and cares with

That the friend I indeed long for fervently

Is in the mirror that I just found-

And if I would just stop putting myself down

Then maybe, just maybe…

I see the smoke, the wall, the SOS

The heartbeat, the fear, the grief

What I want from outside myself

Is inevitably discovered inside me.