Oxytocin

When you smile.

When you wait for me.

When you open my door.

When you call me every morning just to wish me well.

When you remember its my birthday, our anniversary, our first kiss-

When you check to see what’s making that noise in the middle of the night,

When you spend your last dollar to take me out to dinner because I told you I wanted to try something new.

When you laugh at my jokes and you know they aren’t funny and everyone thinks we’re crazy but you still hold my hand.

I release.

I feel safe.

I love you again

So when you forget it was an accident-

When you get  mad because I washed your gym socks with my red panties

When you refuse to hang out with my friends because they are pretentious snobs

When you suggest I lay off the vodka because it makes me angry and violent and verbally abusive

When you use my car and drive all around Las Vegas but bring it back with an empty tank and not a dime to fill it-

I am content.

I feel calm.

I love you again

Because I know that tomorrow

or sooner

Your lip to my breast

Your hand on my spine

Our legs intertwined

Will lead to my orgasm

And I love you again.