If we were really married we couldn’t just get a divorce because we had a fight.
But if we were married, you couldn’t just pack up and leave either if you did not like how I answered a question.
If you are going to do that, then what is the point of being married in the first place?
The bottom line is we have broken up a million times over the past few years.
Honestly, I am tired of moving from place to place every year. It doesn’t make any sense to me.
You get restless because you are bored, so you want to travel, drive or start fights for entertainment.
I’m sorry but most of the time I am not interested in driving for no reason or fighting about anything.
I really just want to go to my job, come home and be with my loved ones, eat something, watch something, have some sex or work out, write my books, shower and sleep. Simple.
I honestly don’t know what we are doing. I don’t even know if this is a real relationship or people just torturing each other. I hate it and I am exhausted. I’m sure that you are too.
I cannot put my finger on why it isn’t working out. You just keep saying stop being a bitch and it breaks my heart. I don’t know what that means or what you want from me. I don’t know if you think calling me that is going to tame me or make things better but the fact is, you do it so much, and you don’t get no positive results from it, so why would you keep doing it?
I don’t care if we have to break up again. I don’t mind getting my own place again. But I cannot keep moving around every year because you are bored. I need a settle life, some calm and peace. I’m not going to keep going back and forth anymore, I can’t.
If I am too old for you, too bourgeois, too petty, too fat or too whatever to be with you, then so be it. I cannot change who I am any more than you can. I’ve been me longer than you have been you. If you don’t love me for who I am, then you don’t. Like you always say, it isn’t anybody’s fault.
You told me you wanted to be together and now you don’t. Well okay.
I’m sick of trying to think of horrible things to say to hurt your feelings the way that you have hurt mine. It’s stupid.
I just want to be happy. I don’t want all of this drama. I can’t go anywhere, I can’t say the right thing, every day you are mad at me about something new and honestly, I don’t think you are mad at me I think you are a drunk and you are easily bored, probably a little slow or something and you pick on me and get mad when I will not stand for it. Honestly, I don’t even care anymore what the problem is.
You don’t want to go to counseling, you don’t want to work on it, you won’t stop the insults and you have made it very clear to me that you don’t like me as a person and I don’t see how this is a relationship or love.
Do I ask you every day to get a job? No. So why the hell do you get to tell me how to talk every day? And you don’t see a problem with this? Then, that is the problem.
But if you stay in the condo for no other reason than to spite me, then you know that is direct proof of your childish and immature behavior toward me and it is uncalled for and sad. If you love yourself you would not get any pleasure out of hurting other people and that is the truth. I don’t know why you asked me to come here but it isn’t because you love me so if that is the case, I want out.
I could be mad at myself, I knew better but, we make mistakes when we think the person we love, loves us back. And I’m not going to keep moving around for you and I am not going to take you back if you go. I’m truly done. If you leave and we break up again this is the last time, just understand that. I don’t think my whole life has to be ruined over one guy with problems and a grudge against me. It’s not love. And you are not worth it.