The Get Away Car

If you took everything that I don’t know and chopped it up and stuffed it into a giant pot and let it boil for hours on end and when it’s molten lava hot poured it out all over the ground it would cover the entire earth. I never said that I was smart.
I never said that I wouldn’t be wrong and scared and slow at times and lost and afraid and weak.
If you turned around at just the right time to watch me walk right out of your life so that my tears caught the gleam off a window and my pain sort of looked like sunshine it would break your heart. I never said that I was immune.
I never said that I couldn’t fall and whine and dream and die and hope and wish and cry all of the time.
You escaped me and you escaped us and you escaped this and you took everything when you turned around
and I’m angry and I’m frustrated and I’m crazy and lonely and there is absolutely no tomorrow.
But there is cocaine ex boyfriend, there is booze… there are cigarettes and pills and I’ll be gone too full of pot full of shit full of hope once again at just the right time waking up poised for the next time. I never said that I loved you.
I have no idea what I am doing in the universe until I let another break me apart.

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