Epic Kitchen Photos

The way my knee gravitated
the way I tried to make my hugs last longer
The way you laughed when no one else did
That was what I was looking for
Until I realized, until I actually realized
I had the same thing, already without you
Without the cosmic bullshit
Without the emotional unavailability
Without the thousands of miles distance
And in this moment right now, with you and with him and with her and with me
I have never been so full
I have never been so clear and clean
I have never been so happily ready
To pull my knee back out of respect
To stand just far enough apart to cause no distress
To stand here smiling genuinely
To love you fully but feel it only platonically
I feel gigantic, and real, and obtuse
I feel perfect, and fragile and loose
The way my heart gravitated
To the actual core of you
The way you love me back like what’s best for me is what’s best for you
Has me reeling
Like film…..
Today I realized,  I fucking actually realized
I had the same thing, already without you…………

sss

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