So I hate him
Kill me
on a yellow brick highway….
Choking toe curls
This is just a fantasy
So I want him
Sue me
near emerald cities…
Forcing flinching rage rips
This is just a fantasy
So I need him
Forgive me
no access until…
Tragically full lungs
This is just a fantasy
I do whatever the fuck he says
But it turns out differently…
Loose and dangerous
This is just a fantasy
So I love him
Kiss me
I beg his permission…
Sweaty heaving on his chest
This is just a fantasy
So I despise him
Believe me
The dog told me the truth…
blood stained scratches hurt
This is just a fantasy
So I avoid him
Test me
He’s just a man…
Biting shadowed transgressions
This is just a fantasy
So I mistrust him
Leave me
I felt awe for nothing…
Broken glass fingerprints everywhere
This was just a fantasy
So I ignore him
Destroy me
He was only pretending…
But he’s sorry now
This is just a fantasy
He’s a magician, not magic
He controls me
He’s so sorry that he did this
He’s sorry that he did this to me…
This is just a fantasy
So I forget him
Fuck me
Cold knuckles healing
And now I hate the Wizard of Oz
And fantasies…