Detours from Road Work Ahead

After I’ve had enough of waiting on the monster I say to myself:

Self,

I know that you spend a lot of time telling you to get over it but you haven’t actually done it yet, have you?
This is not the first time that you’ve loved someone that didn’t love you back either.
I know that it hurts and I’m sorry.
Instead of beating yourself up for falling over and over again for the wrong person, know that at the very least falling means trying.
Know that it is not the worst thing in the world to be rejected by someone else; sometimes it’s a blessing in disguise.
But it’s silly to keep rejecting yourself.
I know that you spend a lot of time crying because you can’t get it right but maybe you’re looking at it at the wrong way.
You can’t fix him, you can’t fix the situation but you can fix you.
The way that you start to fix you is to be a little nicer to yourself when you fuck up.
Stop keeping track of roadblocks and setbacks if you’re not going to spend just as much time cheering for how far you have actually come.
You’re falling forward, at least.
I know that it hurts and I’m sorry, truly.
A woman in love with herself though, tries a little harder than you are doing, to be better toward herself.
It sounds like bullshit but isn’t this worth more effort than bending over backward to convince others to feel how you should already feel about yourself?
People tend to treat other people how those people treat themselves.
If you are better to yourself little girl, it will be much easier to make life and relationship choices that support those efforts.
Eventually the men that you choose to love will reflect your actual worth, instead of the low self-esteem that you have been clinging to and carrying around.
I know that it hurts and I’m sorry.
If you acquire the right level of esteem and forget about the internal clocks and holidays and commercials about what love is on the surface, you might find that you deserve more than you have even allowed yourself to have.
You might discover that a relationship with someone else is a luxury that only the people who truly love themselves actually deserve.
You can’t fix him, you can’t fix the situation but you can fix you.
Be nice to yourself now…
Love yourself now…
It’s silly to keep rejecting yourself.
The love that you are looking for, is your true journey in this world and it starts from within.
This is not the first time that you’ve loved someone that didn’t love you back.
Try loving the lady who lives inside you, truly, and genuinely, just once and see if it doesn’t improve your life one way or another.

After dealing with someone who I never liked in the first place that is mad because I don’t like them, I say to myself:

Self,

You still got it, bitch.

 

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