To The Hilt

He wants something I don’t want
So round and round we go…
I tell myself I shouldn’t
But I never leave it alone.
Inside, it doesn’t feel good.
Outside, I say certainly baby-
Inside, it doesn’t seem right.
Outside, I hope this makes him stay with me
Inside, it smells like a thousand mistakes…
Outside, I promise that I’m into them all-
Inside, I’m struggling to fight him.
Outside, I lie with my life when he calls.
I want something he doesn’t want
So up and down we go…
He tells me that he wouldn’t
But he never leaves me alone…