I very nearly told you…

About where I’m headed

How leaving you was dreaded

About how much gloating I’d done

In front of everyone

About how I felt about you

And why I can’t continue

And why I’m not going to connect

About how I hate when you deflect

About my heart’s suture

And what I hope for your future

And what I hope for my own love life

And why I’d never make a good wife

And how special my memories

of us will always be

The only part I’ll gladly carry with me

And how badly I felt that I couldn’t be

what you didn’t even really need

Even though I loved watching you plead

Unremittingly-

….but I didn’t.