A full work day damn near
7 hours
He came over at 11:30 AM
I was worried but I wasn’t afraid of him
He felt the same fucking way, scared because he could have encountered anything
that reckless gambling
but he got me and I got a work day from him too
but it felt like a lifetime
in my mind, during that time
I got a picture so clear and clean
he’s fucking everything and too much for me
and I now know about his exes and currents and his mom and his dreams and his homeboys and his hometown and everything in-between like his music and what he craves and who he wants to be and his dreams and his experiences including how he feels inside me
and it had to be 4:30 PST
and by then I had already felt it all; elation, satisfaction, disturbance, a pride fall, abhorrence, revelry, challenged, scared and submissive
I felt perturbed and ambitious and close and ferocious and delicious
and like I was his for a whole minute
and that minute was infinite and he’s way too fine to fuck with someone like me
and I’m way too everything else to even be considering
especially as early as 6: 17 PST
I was worried but I wasn’t afraid
He felt the same fucking way because he could have encountered anything
me too
but he got me and I got a work day from him too
and it felt like a lifetime
since so many things happened
and now if he calls he can always come through
his crazy is furious and ferocious and frightening
and I can’t stop connections if they begin
because I gotta start somewhere, Lo,

replacing you…
like I was meant to