Nyx and 23 Million Chickens

I wish that I hadn’t embarrassed you by existing.
To the motherfucker who wished she hadn’t had me
And the one who wishes he’d never met me
And the one who was mad about the abortions
And the other who created my distortions
To the clown who called me fat
And the one who said I wasn’t all that
And the one who came when I tried to die
Know that I
wish I hadn’t been a burden that you had.
I wish that I hadn’t caused you so much pain by being alive.
To the motherfucker who left me 2000 miles from home
And the one who wished our marriage would end so he could be alone
And the one who hit my mother in front of me
And the other who lied to me constantly
To the court jester who called me a bitch
And the one who said I wouldn’t amount to shit
And the one who helped me keep on my lights
Know that I
wish I hadn’t been but I was
and I wouldn’t change a damn thing about us
because of you I became who I am
so I don’t give a damn
anymore unless you tell me
who else was I supposed to be?

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