V616 Monocerotis

I thought I was going through it then
when my best friend in 7th grade liked some other girl
I thought I was so happy then
on my first trip to the other side of the world
I was wrong then and I often find I’m wrong more and more
I don’t know what I’m feeling when I’m feeling it or what else is in store
If I stay present maybe I can see something
but I’m steady replaying
I thought I was going through it then
when I tried to have blonde hair and ended up with orange hair for a year
I thought I was so happy then
the first time I killed at karaoke singing in public and getting over a fear
I was wrong then and I often find I’m wrong more and more
I don’t know what I’m feeling when I’m feeling it or what else is in store
If I stay present maybe I can hear something
but instead I’m rehearsing
I thought I was going through it then
when I had a toothache and found out I actually was gonna be a mother
I thought I was so happy then
when I got my first Hallmark card in in the mail for no reason from my father
I was wrong then and I often find I’m wrong more and more
I don’t know what I’m feeling when I’m feeling it or what else is in store
If I stay present maybe I can know something…

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where am I now?

and is this who I am supposed to be?

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