Taking Stock

They lined up, single file in my mind From most recent to the oldest, waiting patiently for their turn to speak when asked to describe being with me. The monster would say She’s a little crazy, a little gullible but useful. He never loved me though… Old Faithful would say She has no capacity for…

The Man With The Yellow Hat Is Drunk

Just because there is no one else that I can choke and slap Just because there is no one else that I can lead off beaten paths Just because there is no one else that I want riding next to me Just because there is no one else that looks better on their knees Just…

Insignificantfactorsingrandlifeequations

You know how much I love it when you beg. You’re hurting me with this now so pretend to care just a lil… If there is a hell I’m going because of you. You don’t even need me for this anymore so you’re being incredibly cruel. I don’t want to tell you to fuck off…

On the 153rd Juneteenth

He doesn’t know that I picked him because he is beautiful and manipulative like my mother. I picked him because he is brilliant and distant like my father. I picked him because like my parents he ignores me. It doesn’t matter that he’s just your garden variety white boy. For him and for them, I…

Robbery Recuperation

He saw the place online And he asked if he could move in He brought music and emotion to the place But as soon as it was decorated He started putting locks on cabinets Locks on drawers and claiming security for himself was the way he showed his love. But the house was crumbling wind…

Silver or Lead

You gave up on me before I could give up on you Yet I wanted you still So I ran to him scared and crushed You make my chest hurt, you make my eyes water, you make my mind race itself to nowhere and I don’t care But he’s kind to me and you’re not…

The Devil Tarot Card

Me to him: I actually can have you, physically, locked up, forever, with no way out. You make me weak. But I know you don’t get the fact that this is horrible for me. I’m like some sick dirty old pervert crazy lady who buys you sex toys and sucks you off. I don’t know…

Choosing to feel better

Stepping back from the flames Far enough back to see the flickering and smell the wood Out of the direction of the smoke But able to feel it’s intense warmth I set it all ablaze Took all of him and put him on the pyre And he was never more magnificent than he was while…

Bordeaux Breakfast

Fascinated with myself Satisfied with myself Doing cool shit for myself Hanging out with myself Getting along with myself Laughing at myself And then at that tender moment When I think that I might- At that split second that it feels like- I probably could be, sort of should be, In love with myself THEN…

The Tears of the Simulacrum

I know better than this and now I’m like Baby, I can’t anymore. They tell me find someone who makes you feel good about yourself. But look at me still loving you with all the love I have yet it’s no good. You’re obsessing again, I tell myself. These day dreams are stunting my emotional…