Hockey Gods Use Polident too

I could change the world if only I could change myself
except
I need to wash my house slippers they smell like old sweat and chicken feed.
I want to go home but I don’t know where home is exactly.
I wish that my son lived closer and that I wasn’t so difficult to be around.
I’m okay probably, definitely, maybe… I’m sure it’ll get better it’s just that…
I need to eat more water based things so I am fuller longer and pretend it’s more fun than chocolate cake is.
I want to stop being upset about the fact that I will probably have to work for some goon somewhere for the rest of the time I’m alive if I plan on eating and having shelter and whatnot.
I wish I were dead simply because I’m tired of living more often than I would ever say out loud.
I’m fine surely, possibly, I think…I’m sure it’ll get better it’s just that…
I need to pay down my credit cards or consolidate them and just stop using them really.
I want to go to the beach more often than I do, even if it is cold, just for the perspective on all the bullshit that my daily life is filled with- it seems so meaningless next to the sea- so totally inconsequential.
I wish that I was more brave and that I didn’t care what people think and I had no fear.
This is normal, right, isn’t it, hello…no worries, I’m sure it’ll get better it’s just that…
I need to drink less caffeine because it’s just not helpful during the hot flash season.
I want to eat a sandwich but only because I can’t eat a sandwich right now while I adjust to new teeth.
I wish my father was still alive and had spent more of his life protecting mine.
I’m obviously good, certainly, kinda… and I’m sure it’ll get better it’s just that…
I need to stay present and stop entertaining the notion that somebody will care about me someday. I could change the world if only I could change me but sadly there’s no blueprint and trust me
I want to stop wanting a man but I don’t think it works like that.
I wish I could snap my fingers and wash the past away.
I’m positive that I’m clearly not positive about shit.
Maybe this is the best it will ever get…damnit.
The house slippers are in the washing machine, finally. That’s all I got at the moment.